Guilt. Shame. Grief. Panic Attacks. Depression. Those are some of the words invoked to describe the symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder in the opening to this video, produced by the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies a.k.a. MAPS.
Amazing. Earlier tonight I started researching safe and 100% dependable …. uhm…. “exit plans” for finding myself in the throes of yet another episode of utter hopelessness and thus major depression. I mean, with depression I am really doing everything I possibly can to lessen it. However, whatever I do is not sustainable. And when I’m among people, even on days when I think I’m close to o.k. the carefully repressed “dark energy” somehow lets on and people pick up on it quickly, which then has them turn away from me or worse (e.g. bullying).
And now that I’ve gotten back up for insomnia, I come across this article, which again proves beyond a doubt that MDMA-assisted therapy is the only (clinically safe) remedy known to man to address treatment resistant PTSD.
I’ve managed to get on a waiting list for this study taking place in Boulder, CO. Here’s to hoping, I can somehow find the funds to get me there and make it from the waiting list to actually being selected as a candidate for the phase 2 study. Wish me luck!